the hell??

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God I feel shitty today.. I don't know why, its like.. I feel I don't have anyone I could rely on, everyone either have some hidden agenda with me or something. What the hell? Can't I genuinely feel good for someone without the fella turning back and stabbing a belief I had? Why can't people feel good for me? Am I like, truly despicable that noone can actually be nice to me without expecting something in return? I'm always trying to help with people, and I think I'm very nice to everyone, so what did I do to deserve feeling like an absolute moron when all I wanted to do was just have a little chat?
I feel like a bloody doormat. I think I'd probably feel better if I go scream at the fella abit, but that's not nice. Jesus.

Everyone I talk to have some sorta thingy with me.

Maybe I'm just feeling shitty cos I just read a very malicious comment on arahkita. Or I'm feeling abit aimless after graduation. Urgh.