the greatest reward

• music: itunes is off!
  
• mood: blerghhhhh
  
• current art: ...none :D..
  

How am I doing today? God I don't know. Well, I spent the day working on a new auction with Euphony. Good ol dude supporting me.

I have had the luck to win the category in DF's Art Contest. She had PMed me a few months back asking me to join the contest, and so I made the entry about a week before the deadline (typically last minute of me), and posted it as a WIP. I admit I made the mistake of not checking if there is a WIP deadline, which it has not, and the host wondered if there should be one. She took very long to get back to us about that, and I decided to keep working on the pic in case she said no. Turns out she said yes and turns out I could finish the pic in time. So I submitted it and everyone's pissed at me for causing an unnecessary extension.

I didn't post much there, maybe I should have, I don't know. I didn't know silence could be intepreted as hostility..

So the contest results was announced and I came out winner in my category. I was happy of course, now theres more funds for my next contest, and made the Euphony auction to fund it some more too. I checked back the DF contest to thank her but there was hostility towards me.. I was not named of course.. but I guess people weren't happy about my previous success in contests and greed in making the auction. I don't know, I just posted my thanks and closed the window.

Greed? Maybe I am greedy. But not for gold, but for improving. Gaia is a great platform for improving skill, as it doesn't offer real money and therefore no stress, but it does offer incentive in the form of gold. Contests are ideal cos one can do whatever one wants and theres no one to say 'hey I didn't want this.' If the contest was won, thats a bonus. My motto in life really fits well in this context: "The greatest reward for man's toil is not what he gets for it, but what he becomes by it."

I'm not gold hungry. I don't even know what to do with it. Sure I like dressing up my avi but theres only so much pleasure pixels can offer. I join gaia contests and auctions because they are a great place for me to paint whatever I like, however I like. It's hard to find this sort of freedom when commissioned, and as a rule I never paint for myself. I'd rather join something on gaia and make someone happy, and if I'm lucky perhaps get something for it. If not, nevermind, I've had my share of disappointments in gaia contests. I bitched too, but it was a fair bitch I think, cos I submitted 6 quality entries as opposed to the winner's one. But that's a long time ago.

I do take other people's opinion about myself seriously, as I like to improve myself. But I hope there is also a chance to explain myself, not excuses, but to offer all parties more information.

I don't know what I am writing this.. so I am going to sleep :D Goodnight!